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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphjhq/im_scared/ | Bella_Spy | im scared Im a younger teen but i feel like i have to act like an adult. Im scared about my exams again, i just want to die right now. I feel stupid because i dont understand anything at school right now and i feel like im just a horrible friend. Im scared that my friends are just gonna decide they dont like me anymore... | 2 | 1,735,542,114 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpt111/please_one_heart_attack_is_all_i_beg_for/ | Beneficial-Feed-8378 | Please one heart attack is all I beg for. I just wanna die peacefully, quickly, I wish I had the guts to kill myself, but I a fucking loser who can't even be trusted with killing himself.
Oh god, please kill me quick, PLEASE, I beg.
I don't wanna live anymore.
I wanna die.
I wanna die.
I wanna die.
| 2 | 1,735,581,322 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5hfgo/i_will_think_of_you_tonight/ | Beneficial_Passage_8 | I will think of you tonight. Please comment or write me, and I will think of you tonight. I don't want you to feel alone, because you don't have to be.
Please write to me, and I promise I'll think of you tonight. I promise I'll care for you, no matter who you are.
Please please write to me, and I'll keep you in ... | 0 | 1,733,208,184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4eaa6/this_guy_made_me_feel_worse_than_i_already_do/ | Bepopee | This guy made me feel worse than I already do. He called me homeless, a bitch, a cunt, dirty and nasty. Told me to get a real job all because I tried to greet and say hello to him with a fun joke. I want him dead now. All I have is his license plate but that's all. I can't find his name or address with it. I tried my ... | 0 | 1,733,089,053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcldix/no_friends/ | BeyondRoutine9119 | No friends Says it all really. Also who wants to get to know and be friends with someone who's currently going through heavy shit? Remember when friends used to actually mean friends? There for you through thick and thin? People are fucking shallow. Reading others stories of how "friends" abandoned them when they were ... | 0 | 1,734,011,029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h68cxa/dont_know/ | BigStrange1886 | Don't know I am mental issues from past 3 years. I am feeling lonely. Even the law is biased.Even family won't help. Having trust issues on everyone. Also visited psychiatrists and psychologist but no use. Attempted suicide twice. Jobless. I want to work but having difficulty managing anger and panic attacks. | 4 | 1,733,288,667 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiciud/i_written_my_first_note/ | Big_Branch_517 | I written my first note It felt good to write down how I feel but unfortunately I won’t be doing anything to myself. I wish I was stoned out on heroin so I could just feel nothing and have no remorse for my actions.
It was to my friends and the people I hate | 1 | 1,734,671,265 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiobbt/am_i_gonna_live/ | Big_Tit_Chulainn | Am I gonna live.. A week ago (Dec 13) I took 9 ibuprofen to od but it didn't do anything except burning sensation on my stomach which has gone away aftera day. 2 days after (Dec 15) that I took 2 ibuprofen, 12 paracteamols and 5 imodium nothing happened. Dec 21 (now) nothings happening except being drowsy and a full fe... | 6 | 1,734,714,174 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4cvua/i_lost_everyone/ | Big_Will9120 | i lost everyone one of my best friends (or someone who i thought was my best friend) made a rumor that i had slept with my other best friends ex, and my other best friend confronted me and said she was gonna beat my ass, ig that cleared up tho bc it was a "miscommunication" but now my friend who made the rumor said "ur... | 2 | 1,733,085,485 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he3sj3/my_life_is_ok/ | BiryaniLover87 | My life is ok M23 My life is rather ok, I have house and food . My own. But still can't stop imagining cutting my own wrists. I don't understand why, i don't have much social life , very few friends, no gf, is that the reason? Any time I see a beautiful girl i imagine it (low self esteem?)
This whole day I have had t... | 3 | 1,734,185,855 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlux6p/happy_holidays/ | Bl4st0is3 | Happy holidays Not really related to suicide but I know we are all hurting and reading all of your post brought me to tears and I just wanted u guys to know that people share ur pain. I have no idea what ur going through or why you are in that place but have hope, even if you think you can’t go lower if ima be honest ... | 0 | 1,735,106,235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8fbl9/i_feel_like_i_am_not_real/ | Bluekoala593 | I feel like i am not real I have relapsed but erm i still dont feel like i exisg i feel like if i die rn no one would notice or care bcs ive never said anything or done anything worth caring about i just hurt people even unintentionally i cant do anything but | 1 | 1,733,528,995 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpzqo8/really_struggling_with_thoughts_of_ending_it/ | BookkeeperLast3616 | Really struggling with thoughts of ending it I’m having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately and it’s scary. I just can’t take this anymore. I feel so inadequate, I feel so worthless, I feel like I’m a burden and a nuisance and no one cares. I just want this burning feeling in my chest to just stop already. I just want to... | 2 | 1,735,598,635 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h92awf/i_know_some_that_might_hurt_themselves_what/ | Bored-starscream | I know some that might hurt themselves what should I do I need help with this | 0 | 1,733,605,686 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6py2m/i_feel_hopeless/ | Boring-Problem2619 | I feel hopeless Im feeling extremely hopeless with my adhd and other mental illnesses being ignored. I feel like nobody cares. This is the 3rd time this month I've wanted to off myself. | 2 | 1,733,343,327 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmrot/u_know_those_days_when_you_cry_non_stop_and_u/ | Bowandgirlygirl | U know those days when you cry non stop and u know that’s it for you… I cannot believe I'm actually in this position but I cannot do this anymore. I take anxiety meds and they just don't work...
I don't want to be in my relationship anymore I want to get out and I can't | 1 | 1,734,474,735 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcwknc/im_tired/ | BrainlessSlime | I'm tired I'm tired of living. Everything I try I fail miserably at. I can never get good at anything. I'm so sick of my apathy and the way I cope with my failures. I keep picturing how I want to go. Lost and starving in the wilderness just reflecting on how I fucked everything up and how meaningless my existence is. | 3 | 1,734,040,648 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc4xah/some_kind_words_would_be_nice_right_now/ | Bread_567 | Some kind words would be nice right now I dunno some kind words would be nice | 0 | 1,733,953,337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcwccg/took_windshield_wiper_fluid_trying_to_decide_what/ | BreakfastUnique8091 | Took windshield wiper fluid, trying to decide what to do I just took some an hour ago or so, it wasn’t very much so I don’t think I’ll die from it. But now I’m scared because looking online, it says even a sip amount can cause blindness and I don’t want to survive but be blind but I feel too depressed now to deal with... | 6 | 1,734,040,031 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ryck/jumping_from_70_meters/ | Brilliant-Media-1712 | Jumping from 70 meters I need this to work.
Chatgpt said if I land on concrete, head on, my chances for survival would be effectively 0%. Is there something else I need to go in order to guarantee my death? I dont wanna end up paralyzed, in a coma, or a vegetable. That fate is worse than anything else | 5 | 1,733,689,641 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hprz9b/can_someone_talk_to_me/ | BrilliantPrinciple65 | Can someone talk to me? I'm currently scared for when school starts since it's really stresses me out. I thought I did good in the first semester but I'm not sure if I will get the awards that I hope to achieve. My mental health doesn't do good when I have the pressure and stress from having to achieve/maintain a 4.0 g... | 0 | 1,735,578,629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9fkec/cyanide_price/ | Brilliant_Moose_9781 | Cyanide price? What's the price of cyanide? | 3 | 1,733,651,513 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7njop/nothing_left/ | Budget-Disk7726 | Nothing left I want to make it easy on my family so I’m finishing this semester and getting next semesters grants. Instead of spending the grants on school I’m going to spend them getting a moving company to help pack up and donate my things, to rehome my pets and get them transported, and to take a trip back to my ho... | 5 | 1,733,442,430 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcxrwu/i_wanna_kill_myself/ | BuilderNo1909 | I wanna kill myself Everyday i wish i was never born or there was a way that i just disappeared. I have been struggling a lot mentally because of many wrong choices i made and i have been feeling alone and unwanted for past many years. | 2 | 1,734,043,915 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmkad6/my_paranoia_will_kill_me/ | Burner1171 | My paranoia will kill me. I’m not strong enough to keep going on. I’m unlovable and no matter who tries or what happens, I inevitably push everyone away because my own paranoia keeps feeding into my insecurity and I’m trapped in this cycle. I hate myself because I am unlovable and I can’t open up to be lovable, I’m a w... | 2 | 1,735,202,078 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg4vj7/why_shouldnt_i_kill_myself/ | BurnzzyBTW | Why shouldn't I kill myself All I ever think about is either wanting to drink or kill myself I tried talking to my friends about it and it feels like non of them really care I don't see a reason to go on | 2 | 1,734,417,939 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h82f69/almost_pulled_the_trigger_today/ | BurritoToe | almost pulled the trigger today got drunk and loaded up the pistol. shoved it into my mouth with my finger on the trigger when my little sister rushed into the house bc she forgot something for school. i got startled and put the gun away. now im in bed feeling numb. if my sister came in a second late she could’ve seen ... | 6 | 1,733,494,912 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl4lyx/i_just_want_it_to_end/ | Business_Adeptness68 | I just want it to end I just want quiet, silence, nothingness no pain no heartache just empty | 1 | 1,735,010,428 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlqm01/failed_attempt/ | ButtNugget96 | Failed attempt. Marked nsfw for obvious triggers.
I (23f) tried to kill myself last Thursday, it obviously didn’t work. The days since have been hell, going by so slowly. I have therapy in 6 days, I don’t know how I will make it through those 6 days. I feel like I can’t do anything right, like I am alone, like I am ... | 6 | 1,735,088,436 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h91xv1/cancer_from_vaping/ | CIACinnamon | Cancer from vaping? After 2 failed attempts the last 4 years I decided to vape until I was sick of it.
I was secretly hoping cancer will crawl into me I'm starting to regret it I should probably tell my dad or sister.
I'm getting crazy asthma since yesterday morning.
just wanted to keep tabs, hope everyone e... | 1 | 1,733,604,669 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4p4ej/its_been_awhile/ | CabinetofCurios | It’s been awhile Since about I thought very seriously on my unworthiness to be here. Nothing matters really. If they do, then there is no future for me, no skills to speak of, haven’t worked since my husband didn’t think I needed to. Most importantly I have no dream in that future. If you can’t see yourself in the futu... | 1 | 1,733,122,383 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqph5/im_a_bad_bad_bad_angry_person/ | Caboose_the_second | I'm a bad bad bad angry person. Hello. 16M. I am a bad person. And it genuinely makes me want to end my life. I'm terrible at friendships and relationships because I am so lazy sometimes that I cannot even speak to people. I get mad at people so easy, I snap. And then I feel remorse. So I stay alone longer. I snap. I ... | 2 | 1,733,795,653 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha68i5/suicidal/ | Calm-War5962 | Suicidal Hello.
Been suicidal lately. New high pressure extreamly stressful job combinded with small baby and wife to support.
Struggle to sleep through the night. Constantly afraid and crying from the stress and pressure. I cannot do this anymore. Been googling suicide methods and today visited store for rope. H... | 5 | 1,733,737,426 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7vxv6/its_hard_to_keep_going/ | CanadianGroose | It’s hard to keep going When there nothing to live for. I just want to stop | 1 | 1,733,469,687 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5wrjs/new_here/ | CapeTownRetail | New here It's my birthday tomorrow | 0 | 1,733,256,526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb1y4n/i_want_to_write_a_bucket_list_of_things_i_want_to/ | Capital_Salad_4704 | i want to write a bucket list of things i want to do before i die and also reasons to live. can yall suggest smth or give me other reasons? i am really struggling to find reasons to live every single morning. | 1 | 1,733,837,961 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk15zp/kms_without_any_risks_of_survival/ | CardiologistOk4243 | Kms without any risks of survival I’m getting closer and closer now. I just don’t know how to do it. I wish I had a gun bc that would be very quick but I can’t afford to buy one and it’s illegal here. I don’t want to suffer with pain or “panic” and I want 100% death guarantee. Any ideas/tips?
And no, no “talking me... | 5 | 1,734,882,779 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhwfs4/not_sure_what_to_do/ | Careful_Praline_7444 | Not sure what to do Hey guys! I never thought I’d post about this but I feel like I’m at a dead end. I want nothing more than to die. I absolutely hate university (I’m struggling a lot) and don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I come from a poor family so I can’t just live off their money. I want to kill mysel... | 2 | 1,734,625,006 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdormy/tired_of_everything/ | CatSaysMeeeow | Tired of everything It's been a tough year, and I don't even know why I'm still here. I don't know how to survive.. I have no one to talk to about it, I don't have anyone to ask for help when things feel heavy.
I really hope I don't wake up from my sleep. It's tiring. I'm tired of everything.
I'm trying my best... | 2 | 1,734,130,747 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haryab/why_didnt_it_fucking_work/ | Cautious-Package2698 | Why didn’t it fucking work Hey guys uh…Yeah I just tried to hang myself lmfao.. I used this hook that’s drilled into my wall and a shoelace. i made a homemade noose and when i like fucking y’know (i didn’t jump i like slid down so i had the same effect because that hook is low) i could breathe a little and i waited the... | 6 | 1,733,799,508 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplvju/going_blind_losing_teeth_too_expensive_to_live_if/ | CelestialOceanOfStar | Going Blind , Losing teeth, too expensive to live. If you don't have these problems you're blessed My Retina has detached and I can't afford to fix it
I have four wisdom teeth that I afford to get bone grafts for
It's game over before it even started
The world is unbelievably cruel and rigged in other people... | 0 | 1,735,560,438 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf5nxr/should_i_kill_myself/ | ChainsawChen | Should i kill myself? I'm sorry, don't comment. | 2 | 1,734,305,993 | null | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgvb16/can_i_sign_the_do_not_resuscitate_order_for_any/ | Channelmypain | Can I sign the do not resuscitate order for any reason? For instance, if I was to have a heart attack or a stroke out of nowhere can I have something like that in place? | 1 | 1,734,501,879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yss8/idfk_anymore/ | Character_records69 | Idfk anymore I hate I have people who would miss me. I hate it | 1 | 1,733,366,693 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhppzd/how_can_i_get_my_will_to_live_back_any_advice/ | CheeseDango | How can I get my will to live back. Any advice? I've been suicidal since i was young so i never made plans or anything or sorts. I never had a will to live or motivation to actually progress in life. Now im an adult and im still the same way, no surprise.
Does anyone have advice on how I could fix my brain a bit to... | 1 | 1,734,602,741 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkepre/why_was_i_created_to_not_be_fit_for_this_world/ | ChocoTheFerret | Why was I created to not be fit for this world? Maybe I'll be 17 forever. | 1 | 1,734,923,363 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h52myg/i_tried_to_kms_and_now_everyvody_knows_help/ | Choice_Attitude5082 | I tried to kms and now everyvody knows. HELP? I am a girl, 14 years old and go to a comprehensive school in Germany. As I said, I tried to kms, I walked over the tracks several times but when the train came I just could,still don't know why, I think I was afraid it wouldn't work. But a classmate saw me and told the who... | 6 | 1,733,165,904 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58vrg/my_dads_cat_ran_away_and_its_my_fault/ | CidGalceran | My dad's cat ran away and 'it's my fault'. I just need to vent and I've got no one else.
Three months ago my dad 'saved' me from an attempt. He helped me these past few months and things were finally looking up.
Today, whilst he was moving, his cat ran away. He blamed me. He said it was my fault, asking me why I ... | 1 | 1,733,181,350 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlbczr/dont_tell_em_to_be_grateful_i_am_still_alive/ | CisforCOOKY | Don’t tell em to be grateful I am still alive Deleting this post later, currently crashing out haha. Broke, no, mangled my leg thanks to a car accident caused by a friend. Her? Unscathed? Me on the other hand I am almost three months in, can’t walk on this leg and can’t even bend it. I’m tired of everyone, including me... | 1 | 1,735,038,190 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h43mpp/ive_set_a_date/ | CitadelDays | I've set a date I've planned for Friday. I know how to do it so it's just about whether I can finally go through with it.
Everything in my life has been going wrong for years. I keep telling myself it'll get better but it never does. I was up all last night crying because it hurts so much. There's only one way to ma... | 5 | 1,733,060,853 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkgqsz/fuck_man_if_anyone_has_any_advice_id_appreciate_it/ | ClaimNo1122 | Fuck man If anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it . | 0 | 1,734,930,778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5si4y/most_people_are_trash/ | ClassroomRegular1728 | Most People Are Trash Keep your head up if you can. Just understand that most people are trash and they literally take pleasure in putting you down and crushing your spirit. Don’t let them. Wash your hands of them and wish them well on their road to Hell. Here if you want to talk :) | 0 | 1,733,246,092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmr71p/i_cant_stand_being_female_it_only_means_abuse/ | Clownoranges | I can't stand being female it only means abuse I can't fucking stand it anymore, being female only means abuse abuse abuse and being used! Nobody respects you or sees you as a human being they just lie lie lie and trick you to abuse you more! Everybody hates women we are just seen as things!!! I wish I could just have... | 1 | 1,735,228,631 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hild77/someone_confessed_that_they_are_considering/ | CodeVirus | Someone confessed that they are considering suicide with tears in their eyes. What to do? Not sure if this is the right sub. I don’t know what to do. I live in the US. Is there a line I should be calling? | 2 | 1,734,706,099 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh1ik/my_friend_tried_to_end_his_life_and_left_things/ | Comfortable_Alarm162 | my friend tried to end his life and left things for me, should i keep them? my friend and housemate tried to end his life, i wont go into details because it’s not important but luckily we got him to a hospital as fast as possible and is currently spending the night there. i went through his room because i thought he wo... | 0 | 1,733,877,538 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhwn98/i_ate_another_guys_cum_from_my_girlfriend_am_i_a/ | Commercial-Zebra-465 | I ate another guys cum from my girlfriend am I a failure I liked it so much but i feel so confused | 0 | 1,734,625,538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haxk1m/traumatized/ | Commercial_Parking46 | Traumatized I’ve seen some really awful shit happen in real life, Terrifier type shit and it’s fucked up my head I’m in middle school and my grade and stuff have been great I don’t know what to do with my life | 0 | 1,733,820,623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he1328/a_disappointment/ | Competitive-Eagle900 | A disappointment I’ve been feeling sad and I told my parents and they’re now disappointed of me, I can’t stop myself from feeling depressed and now I’m also a disappointment, please help I can’t stop wishing to die | 1 | 1,734,176,027 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hciqow/i_know_killing_myself_is_selfish_so_why_do_i_keep/ | Competitive-Set5051 | I know killing myself is selfish so why do I keep thinking about it? I've been switching from wanting to die and wanting to live just for other people, it's so exhausting | 2 | 1,734,001,507 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8su3/reminder/ | Complex_Trouble_6596 | Reminder Keep going. Nothing I can say is gonna change it for most of us so just keep going, whatever that means to each person. | 0 | 1,735,514,247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haj5yl/i_always_come_back_to_these_dark_thoughts_i_just/ | ComprehensivePie9542 | I always come back to these dark thoughts. I just want peace I truly feel that death is the only way we’ll ever reach peace. No matter how much I seem to improve I always have a dark voice telling me life is pointless, I’ll always be depressed no matter how much therapy I seek out, how much I work on myself. My brain j... | 2 | 1,733,775,280 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfkxiw/regret/ | Connect-Work4295 | Regret For those that survived - do you regret not having left a letter? | 0 | 1,734,361,105 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoeuge/dont_want_to_live_anymore/ | Conscious-Buy-6204 | Dont want to live anymore Had a really aweful and constricting life with uncaring parents and world that was aweful and cruel. A lot to say but im just looking for someone to talk to rn. No suicide hotline in my country unfortunately. Ideally a call. Dont want to send a million messages. | 1 | 1,735,418,674 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl49se/i_cant_do_this_anymore/ | Conscious-Egg-5288 | I can’t do this anymore I can’t feel like this anymore I am in so much pain and every day is a struggle and I don’t know what to do or where to go and I just need help. i’ve been praying to god to just take me I can’t do this. please someone help me | 1 | 1,735,009,269 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpeep3/grief_depression/ | Conscious-Glass-409 | Grief depression I lost my mom four months ago and am struggling with complicated grief. I've thought of taking matters into my own hands and ending my pain
I don't feel like the pain will ever go away. I was empty before the loss but now it's intensified it
Nothing makes sense | 2 | 1,735,530,984 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpcua/how_and_what_pills_can_i_take_to_off_myself/ | Constant_Spread6194 | How and what pills can I take to off myself during sleep on my birthday? Serious question. Someone here is bound to know a method with 100% success rate. Either provide the details or fuck off with your support | 5 | 1,735,334,659 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkgsyb/its_either_suicide_or_the_rest_of_my_natural_life/ | ContactStill9724 | It's either suicide or the rest of my natural life in prison (no in between) I (28M) have broken quite a bit of laws, most of them minor, but a few major nonos that would probably get you severely beaten up in prison, if not killed anyway. Also, I might also do time in federal prison apart from state prison.
So f... | 2 | 1,734,931,013 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgrc20/why_cant_i_die/ | Content-Leg-8258 | Why can’t I die God please kill me, I can’t describe this pain I just don’t wanna exist. Please!! Why are the ways that will work so painful why can’t NyQuil or pills work!! Why can’t I escape this pain! | 3 | 1,734,488,148 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfnq1/just_that/ | Content_Arm3085 | just that I can't do it anymore . Idk how to express my feelings ,but I know it feels like shit . I never been happy even if everything is ok I'm not , I want to rest to not feel pain in my heart everyday nor scared I just want peace, | 1 | 1,733,873,655 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopbub/worst_fucking_birthday/ | Correct-Captain5826 | worst fucking birthday Today was my 18th birthday. It was so bad. Everyone canceled on me. So I canceled my birthday party I cried all morning. My dad got me nothing as a gift. I was so sad the afternoon my mom pulled me by my hair and I was on the bed and dragged me to the ground and started punching me repeatedly. I... | 1 | 1,735,450,941 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4tglt/im_failing_school/ | Correct_Ability2718 | I’m failing school I always wanted to get a good score on the finals and get to a good university. Now this dream is crumbling as i’m failing, and that is all my fault, i got OCD out of nowhere when i was in elementary school, done nothing to cure it, and it developed, i lack self discipline, done nothing about it, add... | 2 | 1,733,141,115 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn66k3/suicidal_but_only_sometimes/ | CourageRound7055 | suicidal but only sometimes I'm not at the point to where I feel it's necessary but I don't see myself living past 25 years old i don't have a girlfriend I've never had a girlfriend and my theory is what is the point in life if you can't find a soulmate my dream is to have a wife and kids but I'm starting to accept th... | 3 | 1,735,271,394 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh9ho/goodbye/ | CrazyG0thQueen | Goodbye Gonna lie my head down on train-tracks soon.
Thanks for everything, sorry
Bye. | 6 | 1,733,878,197 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj8ris/wtf_do_i_do_like_fcking_seriously/ | Creative-Midnight594 | Wtf do I do like fcking seriously I feel like I’m aimless purposeless useless I can’t love properly meaning I can’t form real attachments I don’t seem to be able to feel truly happy and exist in a state of dissociation nothing particularly feels real to me I watch other people form meaningful emotional attachments and... | 3 | 1,734,783,610 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1how95e/just_want_some_guidance/ | Creative_Option_3867 | Just want some guidance Why do I feel depressed and suicidal when I have nothing actually wrong, or When things are actually finally looking up
Why am I just so miserable and lonely when I'm surrounded by some of my closest friends
I honestly just don't know what's wrong with me at this point any guidance woul... | 1 | 1,735,479,775 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk8z6v/i_tried_ending_myself_last_night/ | Creepy-Expert4174 | I tried ending myself last night. I don't know what to do anymore, some random person I met on VR who I don't even know talked me out of it, they care about me more than my actual parents do. Whenever i talk to my parents about it, they brush it off and say "you're not actually going to do it" they were right, I couldn... | 6 | 1,734,905,141 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkb1mj/my_friend_od_on_alprazolam_will_she_be_okay/ | Creepy-Locksmith-767 | My friend OD on alprazolam, will she be okay? Hi, as you can see from the title, my friend OD herself on alprazolam
She took 32 0.5 mg alprazolam and I’m just really wondering what are the side effects on that? I just received a call that she OD herself and as of now, they already called an ambulance but will she be... | 0 | 1,734,911,374 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhd1qv/xanax/ | Critical_Article3446 | Xanax I was thinking of ways to go, and i remembered i had a stash of xanax in my home country from a psychiatrist i saw. I am going back there in 3 days for Christmas break, thinking of bringing it back where I live. How does it feel like to overdose on it? Can it work with some alcohol? I always think of doing someth... | 3 | 1,734,559,288 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf2v8v/drugs/ | Curious_Butterfly_86 | Drugs I have 50mg oxycodone and hundreds of nortriptyline, what would happen if I take them all together? | 3 | 1,734,298,109 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhvuib/im_tired_of_living/ | CuteAndCreepyDaemos | I'm tired of living I'm just done with all this crap, all this slander and bullying and false accusations, it feels like no one is on my side, I'm just done. I'm to mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted to keep going | 1 | 1,734,623,444 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpinjb/wife_is_probably_cheating/ | Damage7144 | Wife is probably cheating. My wife and I have been doing through a hard time. I found out she's texting someone that I don't know. The caller I.D comes up as a guy. She all of a sudden has been going to the gym and now has been there for 4 hours. It's 3am. Yes I know the gym is 24 hours but she's never had intrest in ... | 0 | 1,735,546,782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl1bev/i_just_need_a_vent_outlet_i_guess/ | DamageRoutine7856 | I just need a vent outlet i guess. It consumes me, the darkness, heavy as night,
My soul drifts endlessly, devoid of light,
I carry meaningless burdens created by flesh,
Yet they consume me nonetheless,
Wishing for meaning,
I end up screaming,
I cry out trapped in an endless web,
I reach out for light but o... | 1 | 1,734,999,545 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn91nl/could_chugging_nausea_medicine_kill_you/ | Dangerous_Ferret_469 | could chugging nausea medicine kill you probably obvious why i'm asking and some context
-bullied constantly
-my parents are both bipolar and emotionally/mentally abusive
-my parents treat literally everyone else but me nicely even though I do what they ask
-ptsd from multiple occurrences of SA to me | 3 | 1,735,281,716 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9s91x/hey_you/ | Dark-nessFalling | Hey you! Yes you, reading this post. I know you dont feel well, being on this sub and all. Trust me, i know that feeling. I also know its hard not being heard, screaming into the void. So, here's the deal: if there is anything you want to talk about, you need anyone to just acknowledge you, to listen, talk to me, comme... | 0 | 1,733,690,443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6llcb/i_just_cant_see_any_light_at_the_end_of_the_tunnel/ | DarzAlz | I just can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel Articles, posts or messages telling me to continue living for the sake of seeing how beautiful the world can be, how things will change for the better, or the day I find someone who will love me are all BS. I don’t see the light that leads to happiness. Happiness is w... | 1 | 1,733,332,975 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhrjuq/i_have_never_had_a_friend/ | Dazzling_Plastic_745 | I have never had a friend The only pleasure I can exact from anything is by being bitter and mean. Schadenfreude is the only thing that makes me happy. I have the right to be a misanthrope. Why should I give anyone anything? I don't care how many people's hopes and dreams I trample on to get where I want to be. I just ... | 0 | 1,734,610,310 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8vygy/almost_killed_myself/ | Deep-Hearing-3258 | Almost killed myself There’s a post on my page explaining the story and I don’t feel like telling it again, but I almost killed myself about an hour after my now ex ended the call where he broke up with me. I was cutting and self harming in other ways and I almost climbed over my balcony railing and threw myself off. I... | 6 | 1,733,588,472 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhbq5y/i_am_a_bad_person/ | Defiant_Hat_68 | I am a bad person I want to kill myself, my friends all hate me and I have no future | 2 | 1,734,555,811 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdmzo8/i_want_this_to_stop/ | DeleriousBeanz | I want this to stop I ruin everything
I can’t take it anymore.
The paranoia, the moodswings, the anxiety.
I can’t do this.
I ruin everything without thinking.
It’s killing me that I can never seem to be a good friend anymore.
I just want everything to do dark and quiet. | 1 | 1,734,125,800 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg4des/committing/ | Delicious-Camel5141 | committing honestly, I just done being poor, I didn't choice to be born. I hate that this is how my life is going, I hate that my parents never considered me as a person, just an extension to themselves. This has affected me in so many ways, specifically mostly because I have never been able to make close friend due t... | 1 | 1,734,415,867 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiffmz/thinking_about_it/ | Delicious_Resort2725 | Thinking about it I want to end it, I'm so depressed. 3 months postpartum. My relationship is horrible. The only thing is my daughter. My depressed mood is just going go ruin Christmas I don't want to have to pretend to be happy. Idk what to do I don't want to be here anymore | 2 | 1,734,683,368 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6r0qq/committing_suicide_isnt_that_bad/ | DemonKingMao01 | Committing suicide isn’t that bad I’m in a psyche ward typing this I tried to cut my carotid artery. The knife went pretty deep into my neck but didn’t really hurt.
My next attempt will be with antifreeze(ethylene glycol) I’m not afraid and I really want my life to end.
I have Charles bonnet disease and it’s be... | 6 | 1,733,345,974 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5dp7h/i_survived_the_trauma_but_i_cant_survive_myself/ | DepressedTerrestrial | I survived the trauma but I can’t survive myself I’m so exhausted. I don’t think I can make it to Christmas, or tomorrow. All I think about all day is dying.
I can’t even cry anymore, I’m broken. I’ve been sitting outside in the snow for an hour letting the flakes land on my face, so I almost feel like I’m crying. ... | 2 | 1,733,195,173 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlaxq7/colostomy_bag_life/ | DescriptionHour3243 | Colostomy bag life I am 31 years old, never had a girlfriend let alone any regular friends (both of my gender and the opposite). When I was 24 my intestines twisted together and no one would help me for 5 years. I have a colostomy bag hanging off my side now, my question now is should I just kill myself? | 2 | 1,735,036,317 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xi3y/i_have_to_live_with_my_abuser_again/ | Designer-Pianist5291 | i have to live with my abuser again i lived with an abusive relative my entire life. he got into a freak accident and is now considered physically disabled and requires living assistance. my family placed him in a nursing home for a time, where he was notorious for throwing tantrums and sexually harrassing the caretake... | 2 | 1,733,362,885 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xa33/feeling_pretty_fucking_terrible_also_fuck/ | Desire-4-Comfort | Feeling pretty fucking terrible. Also fuck Borderline Naive me hoped things would improve yet here I am, only getting more reasons to try again. People toying with my fucking feelings. I'm convinced people only bond with me to then drop me like a sack of brick with the sun's gravity because I'm so fucking sure people l... | 2 | 1,733,257,743 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgl6lq/contemplating/ | DesolateLand_ | Contemplating Im really distressed and scared at the moment. I have one “friend” who recently has been encouraging me to commit and its severely triggered me. Today I relapsed after auditorial hallucinations told me to and now they are saying to me to commit suicide. I’ve swallowed 2 of the pills to overdose but couldn... | 6 | 1,734,470,550 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h813jq/i_wish_i_could_kill_myself_i_wish_it_wasnt/ | DesperateGuarantee28 | I wish I could kill myself. I wish it wasn’t religiously forbidden. I understand some of you guys are nonreligious but as a Muslim, religion is a big part of my life but unfortunately suicide is forbidden like it is in Christianity I presume. I feel like I’ve worked hard enough. It’s time for me to rest. I’m out of ga... | 2 | 1,733,490,929 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haskx7/disease_ruined_my_body_and_i_cant_cope/ | Devastated47 | Disease ruined my body and I can't cope In the very beginning of this year I went through a traumatic divorce. I made myself sick with stress and got diabetes. The depression caused me to lose A LOT of weight rapidly, too rapidly. It caused some irreversible damage and destroyed my self esteem. I can never be intimate ... | 1 | 1,733,801,487 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj2lwa/pregnant_having_real_suicidal_thoughts_scared/ | Dietcherrycokke | Pregnant having real suicidal thoughts. Scared. https://www.reddit.com/r/mentalhealth/s/KpmpbvSRhb
I posted this on the mental health subreddit but posting here too bc i genuinely feel like i have 0 will to live and nobody to vent to. Thanks | 2 | 1,734,756,940 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
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