I feel a bit better after letting it out, just imagine if you find out what you have been believing for years was all a lie and not what you think. How would it feel... I would manage ofc.
Honestly that would suck . I mean it would hurt to see that everthing that you believed in was nothing but a scam . I hope you get better . If you need help with anything else im here for you , even tho we dont know each other