I think it's better to be self aware. I know I'm not a good person by some standards, but I try to be in order to benefit myself by having others not take issues with me. Sometimes it works, but other times people are out to get you bc they have their own problems or jealousy that they hold inside. Just remember to keep focusing on your own goals and be optimistic.
why... i mean why sbould i fall in this cycle of selflove snd hatred do i need to justify how do i feel to anyone... EVEN MY SELF im a bad guy i accepted it and took rolling the boulder as my eternal act of penance FOR MY GUILT AND CULPABILTY MY PILGRIMAGE MY.... PUNISHMENT