I used to be like that. I honestly don't know what changed. But i can tell you it gets better if you just ride it out.. I still have bad days but learning to be grateful for the shit I have that don't deserve really helped me bro
Ay i mean i really hope it gets better, but atp ion see that happening anytime soon prolly cause almost everyone on my dads side of the family, including my dad, has either depression or some other mental illness, and theyre not really in the best place w it