That's why I haven't really tried to be real. Now I just have other things to focus on at this point and carry on. But really I'm not gonna find shit to be fair maki.
First sentence is crazy. But as your friend who loves you and cares for you. You gotta be real with yourself soon enough or else things will come crashing at you and it just bites you back again. But like I said, just be gentle and patient with yourself. You dont gotta do everything all at once. Take it one step at a time.